30 Day Blog Journal: Day 12- something you are OCD about

MY BLOG!! LOL!!!!!!  Serious. It has to - THEY HAVE TO - look perfect or I go into convulsions!!

30 Day Blog Journal: Days 10 & 11 are on hold

Days10 & 11 are a picture taken of me over 10 years ago... and a recent picture of me... since i can't lay my hands on either right now, I'll pick up on day 11 tomorrow and add these in soon

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 9 - a photo you took

Hmmm... so many lately!  Just one???

My girls being goofy over ice cream @ Champps!

Friendship & miracles

I know this is MY blog but I have to drag friends into it today because it HAS TO mean something!!!!

I got positive OPKs Saturday & Sunday and a .3 temp spike today....

My TTC bestie got put on Metformin, got her first positive opk Sunday, first ever peak/eggie on her CBEFM Saturday, and a .3 temp spike today. Which I swear means her first EVER ovulation!!!!

Two other wonderful TTC friends got positive OPKs Sunday, and one uses CBEFM and got peak yesterday and today...

We're sharing all these positive lines now... and although I don;t usually get my hopes up, I hope that this means a mass exodus from TTC very soon!!!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 8 - a photo that makes you angry/sad

This is an inside joke so unless you KNOW.... you just won't get it.. sorry!! LOL!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 7- a photo that makes you happy

No, it isn't MY picture.. but it makes me happy!!!
I ♥ you, Ang!!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 6 - 20 of my Favorite things

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into Springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad.

I desperately needed this post today.. in a bit of a rut and I need my favorite things in my head so I don't feel so bad...

1. Hugs and kisses from my girls 
2. Snuggles from the hubs 
3. Beyu Coffee
4. The waiter at Beyu... :hehe:
5. Dinner out with friends
6. Cooking a nice meal for my family
7. Long hot bubble baths
8. Fluffy towels
9. Getting all dressed up even if I have no where to go
10. WINDOW SHOPPING! (yes I can go hours and barely spend a dime if i need to)
11. Random texts from friends
12. Having quiet time with a book, my beading hobby, or anything just ME time
13. A day out "with the girls"
14. BBQ and potato salad
15. Clean, soft, sleepy doggies
16. The smell of fresh cut grass
17. The smell of a new book
18. Lullabies
19. Fresh squeezed lemonade
20. HOPE

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 5 - Favorite Quote

All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. ~Edgar Alan Poe -

I just love the quote… love it so much that I want this above my bed…

Just some thoughts...

The marathon was a failure so while we are continuing to TTC I figure if that many sperm can't catch one egg with a nice strong O spike, it must not be getting where it needs to go somehow. So we're going through the motions, but I'm going to try to get an HSG at the beginning of the year.

It's weird. When I hit the 1 yr mark I got very.. cynical?? about TTC for a while, even renamed the blog!! But now that I have literally given it the best shot possible... opk w/ confirmed O charting, pre-seed, vitamins & supplements, more sex than I knew what to do with... when AF got here I wasn't even surprised... and though I was disappointed, the pain was gone.

I think I've hit a point where I've accepted infertility until I can find a way to fight it. It's liberating in a way, but still a pain in the ass. Not that I'll stop TTC, but I'm more accepting of the fact now...

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 4 - Favorite Book

My favorite book is actually a series. The Dark Tower by Stephen King. It follows, flashes back, and ends with the story of Roland, The Gunslinger. I’ve lost track of how many books LOL! But I love it!!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 3 - Favorite TV Show

Another huge Toss up LOL!

Law & Order: SVU – I LOVE MARISKA HARGITAY!!!! And Christopher Meloni is one hot shade of me likey.

and

BONES — I read Kathy Reichs books, so seeing them in action is great. And uhm… David Boreanaz.. need I say more??

Yes, both forensic-y law stuff. It’s what I live for!! I wish I could get into the field, but it is SO swamped.. sigh…

Well, It's that time again....

I'm still pretty resigned to the fact that I won't get pregnant without medical intervention, but It's OPK time again.. CD9.. ok I'm a little early. I forgot what CD I was on LOL!  The girls like stalking so it's all good :D

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 2 - Favorite Movie

My favorite grown-up movie is Dracula 2000. My first Gerard Butler movie :drool:
I just like the story. And the actors… did I mention the drool??? LOL!

My favorite kid movies are all Disney: Alice in Wonderland, Snow White, Bedknobs & Broomsticks, and Mary Poppins. All the classics… and I love the movie/cartoon shows. Amazing technology for that time.

I also like the original Clash of the Titans, Charlotte's Web, and Secret of N.I.H.M. My aunt & uncle had those on the huge laser disc things and me & my cousins watched them almost daily!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 1 - Favorite Song

My favorite song is a toss up between Afterlife and Seize the Day.

Both songs are by Avenged Sevenfold, an American rock band who sing about how things in life affect us all. Both of these songs touched my life after the loss of 2 preganancies.

The words may mean different to same, but they speak to me of the things I have lost that I will return to, but first I have a life to lead.

It's the little things...

AF is gone, DH is home, my kitchen is clean and I own clean clothes... all in all not a bad weekend.

I also lost another pound!! WHOOOO! I have hit the 5 lbs down goal! It may not sound like a lot, but just a 5lb loss brought my BMI under 40! I'm really doing this.. one day at a time!

4 down.. plenty to go!

Pounds that is.. but it's a start right?

All I've been doing is watching what I eat and trying to NOT eat after midnight.... I'm pretending I'm Mogli...  I know.. I KNOW! You're not supposed to eat after like 8 or 10 or whatever, but I stay up LATE. I have to pace myself... we'll go drastic later! LOL!

40 kazillion sperm cannot get me pregnant...

So we did this 30 in 30 challenge (being intimate 30x in 30days) and got more than 1/2 in BEFORE O.
I got my OPKs in 3 days before my spike, got pretty lines, and I ovulated beautifully, right on time.
Perfect charting spike said I O'd and my temp stayed up...
4 days ago I started spotting.  On/Off. Test. On/Off. Test.
Today at about 1 am I started AF in full.

I guess 40 kazillion sperm cannot get me pregnant...

So, DH wants to order Zumba for me since i'm loving it (see previous post). If I can't get pregnant I'll just get skinny! Still TTC for sure... just focusing on me for a change.

Angela had a GREAT idea!

Angela had this wonderful little blurb on her TMP signature block

"No more siggy until my BFP!"

and I thought WOW! Brilliant!! Every month she and I pound our heads trying to think of something hopeful and new to out in our siggy... now.. it is over.

I made this:


It will link back here to my blog which should explain why i'm tired of siggys...

In other news:

• I'm 12dpo, spotting has stopped and I'm still getting BFNs...more testing in TWO DAYS.
• DH is on a business trip so the 30 day challenge is on hold. He will be attacked 6 times in 4 days when he gets back! Mwwahahahahaa!
• If I am not pregnant (ie 40 kazillion sperm CAN'T get me pregnant) I am going on the PCOS diet with Angela and starting Zumba. George wants to buy it for me.

Thats all for today...