This month's chart

So I don't know what to think.

I started charting late in my cycle, CD9, and by CD 10 my temp spiked, and ditto on CD11. Comparing to my first fully charted BFP chart, I did the same cd11-13 and O'd CD 16.

If this chart continues true to that I hope to see O on CD 14 this month. Again, not TTC, but just charting to see if my body is working.

Here's my chart...

See you again soon..
Me

Planning Stage - #1

Steps currently taken:

• 3/20/09 Made appointment with Dr. Black North Oaks Family Planning, April 3, 2009
• 3/26/09 Hoped to get OPK but the store I went to they were all expired. GRRRrrrr!
  
• 3/24/09 Fax sent out to get a copy of my records from the ectopic pregnancy/surgery.
• 3/24/09 Created this blog to have a place to vent that isn't associated with the blog the entire family follows.... I'm not ready for that yet.
  
• 3/25/09 NEED TO REMEMBER TO START TEMPING!!!!!
  
• 3/25/09 General shopping planned so will get OPK somewhere some how.

Mood:

• anxious
• nervous
• afraid
  

Thoughts:

• I'm afraid I am going to be told no on the 2rd too and this dream is over. I just want one more chance....
  

My story

I began TTC my 2nd Dec 2004, miscarried June 2, 2005, and finally brought new thriving life into the world June 2, 2006. She has been my miracle and it took me almost a year to bring myself to TTC again , and exactly 1 year ttc before I got that next positive test.

Sadly, a few short weeks later I started having severe cramping in my right side. A trip to L&D with an emergency run to u/s showed a perfectly formed sac w/heartbeat... at the conjunction of my tube and uterus, growing into my tube- what is called a corunal ectopic pregnancy - only 1-2% of pregnancies are this type. We were devastated, but told we could try again when my numbers went back down. Unfortunately, when i went in for surgery it was worse than the u/s showed. I was on the verge of rupturing I lost not only my tube, but the corner or "horn" of my uterus. "A sizable portion of the horn," is how my dr put it, the technical term is a cornual resection. He recanted his words of hope, telling us that it would be better not to ttc again. That there is a chance of the uterus rupturing during delivery, or possibly in the 3rd trimester.

I still have my right tube, I still ovulate, I still have the witch AF. What I don;t have is another baby. I have 2 daughters and 2 angels. I love my daughters, but I have always dreamed of at least 3 babies. What I do have is a nagging doubt, and a longing to TTC again. I know I have a 15% higher risk for another ectopic since I have had one already. I have read online about women carrying to "full term" as in delivering as soon as they reached 35-36 weeks to prevent rupture. I'm willing to deal with moderate bed rest and all that jazz. I just want another baby.

My husband and I have decided to seek a second opinion and hopefully on April 3rd I will have a positive answer to my nagging and can begin TTC dream #5...

HUH?

Abbreviations WITH explanations lol!
(in alphabetical order)

2ww Two Week Wait before testing
AF Aunt Flo or menstruation
AH Assisted Hatching
BBT Basal Body Temperature
BD Baby Dance, Sex
BC or BCP Birth Control Pills
BETA Blood test for PG
BFN Big Fat Negative (Pregnancy Tests)
BFP Big Fat Positive (Pregnancy Test)
CB Cycle Buddy - friend w/same cycle day
CD Cycle Day
CL Corpus Luteum
CM Cervical Mucus
CP Cervical Position
DB Discussion Boards
DD Dear Daughter
DH Dear Husband
DPO Days Past Ovulation
DS Dear Son
DTD Doing The Dance, BD, sex
DUST Sprinkle PG Dust on TTCers
EC Embryo Cyro/Freezing
EDD Estimated Due Date
EPO Evening Primrose Oil
EWCM Egg-White Cervical Mucus
FF Fertility Friend (online charting software)
hCG Human Chorionic Gonadotropin - detected in HPTs
H&H Happy and Healthy
HPT Home Pregnancy Test
HSG Hysterosalpingogram - usually to test for blocked tubes.
ICSI Microfertilization
IF Infertility
IUI Intrauterine Insemination
IVF In Vitro Fertilization
LH Luteinizing Hormone - detected in OPKs
LP Luteal Phase, days between O & AF
O Ovulation
OPK Ovulation Predictor Kit
PG Pregnancy, pregnant
PNV Prenatal Vitamin
RE Reproductive Endocronolgist - "fertility doctor"
SA Semen Analysis
ROBI Robitussin or Guaifenesin Syrup (expectorant) used to thin CM
SO Significant Other
SOD Sex on Demand
TCOYF Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Weschler
TR Tubal Reversal
TTC Trying To Conceive
YI Yeast Infection