13 July 2010

A fitting return...

My last post pre-move (which went fine btw) was about National Infertility Week.  Today I'm posting.. I'm an infertile. Two years ago I lost my right fallopian tube to an ectopic pregnancy, I have hypothyriodism, and a luteal phase defect. Today marks my 10th cycle trying to concieve another child.

Infertility hurts. We've all heard it, but let me explain.

Imagine wanting something so bad your heart literally aches when one passes you by. You're saving up for it but you're just NOT. QUITE. THERE. You save all your money in a little tim box. You count it every day to see if you've gotten there yet, but the answer is always "Not Yet!" Then one day the little tin box you've been saving your cash in... catches fire and you catch it when your money has all but burned up.

My body is like that money.

I use natural supplements to keep my body healthy. I use Natural Family Planning. I chart my morning temps. I chart symptoms. I chart things from places better left to the imagination. I use ovulation predictor kits (opks). I spend a small fortune on home pregnancy tests... only to see a single line staring back at me month to month when a second line that would change my world so much is all I am looking for.

I'm not giving up.

One day soon i will see two pink lines.....

Until then?

Hello, My name is Anne Marie, and I'm an Infertile on cycle day 1 of yet ANOTHER cycle.  Are you ready to ride this rollercoaster with me??



RayRayBoone said...

I'm ready to ride this rollercoaster with you!

I'm hoping you get that second line very soon.

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