Still no idea...

Well, still no heavier bleeding.

I would say NO bleeding becaus eit is almost gone.. but nooooot quite. If I can get DH to get me some HPT's on the way home tomorrow I might test every other day (Wednesday/Friday/Sunday) until something definite happens either way.

All I know for sure is that I don't want to start those pills SUnday without a definite heavy cycle. If my cycle is screwed up enough already that I'm not having any bleeding, I think I may need to call the doc back and find out if I should even take the bcp's..... I don't know anymore.

At this point I'm just ready to start actually bleeding so it's confirmed AF.

For tonight,
Eternally & hopelessly confused,
Anne Marie

Frustrated and confused...

First a little back story...

September 18, 2005 - MY WEDDING DAY!!

• 10 am - - 10 dpo
• 2pm - small family/informal wedding
• 5pm - getting out the dress - light/med spotting
• Sept 18-28 light/med spotting and just "out of it
• Oct 3 - friend demands a HPT - 24 dpo
• June 2 , 2006 Kaelyn Elizabeth arrives

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So here I am praying that I don't get put on hold by hubby and I get:

• 9 dpo
• 
• light spotting
  

I never get my positives early. I just tested "because."

I don't know what to do. I obviously want this to be like kaelyn and just spotting before my BFP. If it was heavy flow and I KNEW it was AF I would accept it. We only BD ONCE before O.

If it is spotting..

I guess I'll wait till Sunday. If it get's heavy enough to call it AF I will, if not I'll test again.

I am worried if it's NOT AF... that's a 9 day luteal phase

And to top it off I tried to talk to hubby about a time line for TTC if I did start the BC pills and he said about 2 sentences then started talking about skate parks.... Sometimes I really do want to give up... and I haven't even started yet.

My chart has the chart for DD#2 showing the spotting before under this month's chart.

I obviously don't want to start the pills (at all) if it might be like Kaelyn.

I don't want every month TTC to be like this. I want definite answers, either AF or not. I can get frustrated at AF and that's ok. I can deal with it. It's the "maybe--maybe not--just wait" that's what makes me crazy. I don;t want to get him frustrated before we even get to reallystart trying, and he will if I have too many questions/concerns about it.

I guess the frustration boils down to I was expecting AF and now I have this limbo.. I JUST WANT AN ANSWER!!!!!

All in my head???

Someone on my message board just asked if I was having any symptoms (due to our 'oops' the day before O) This is my reply

Real symptoms or imagined ones??? LOL

I know that last night before I growled at him for pinching my nipples hard enough to make them hurt and he looked at me like I was nuts and said he hardly touched them, LOL!

I was nauseated most of the day yesterday but that could have been from the migraine and/or heat and/or giving blood Saturday then getting in the heat all day Sunday.

I have been in bed at like 8-9pm all week and I am usually an insomniac and stay up till 2-3 am....

So I dunno. I wanna say its good signs, but it could just as easily be I have worn myself out any my body is demanding I rest...

I'm TRYING to hold out till Friday. I went back through my ;ast 3 pregnancies and I got my BFP's late.. so I dunno what to do!

I woiuld love to say YES I AM! IT'S GREAT PG SIGNS!! but I want to be a realist, with my age, one tube, and one night of BD, could it possibly have happened so soon? We wante dto put a plan in place and attempt to follow it and get some things taken care of. I guess we'll just have to take one day at a time and see what happens.

Anne Marie